DEMO 10.16.2005 11:53am

I recall this idea coming about later in the cycle of A Forest Through The Trees, before heading in to work with Glenn at the studio, but after the home programming phase had time to marinate. It seems songs like this are in my DNA. Acoustic guitar was among the first instruments I learned to play, which makes my familiarity with it conducive to composition if I feel like using that particular tool.

I recorded this right before our wedding. One could read into that (as one could be inclined). Reading the words now is an adjective I don't know yet unfortunately, especially amid our recent decision to move to Louisville.
Thanks for listening.

SMOKE SIGNALS

I AM LIVING IN A WORLD OF PLAIN
BORN BY WAVES OF LIGHT AND SOUND
FAITH IN THE WORDS THAT I PROCLAIM
AIDS A METHOD THAT YOU ASTOUND
SO I'M BREAKING THESE SOUVENIRS
I'M SEARCHING FOR NEW FRONTIERS
I'M ESCAPING THIS ATROPHY
RIVER CITY WILL SET ME FREE

I WAS LIVING IN A WORLD OF PLAIN
WITH NOTHING NEW TO FEEL ABOUT
EVERYDAY TURNED OUT ALL THE SAME
BUT ONE DAY I COULD DO WITHOUT
ALL I COULD TAKE PLEASURE FROM
OH THEN WHAT HAD I BECOME?
NO MISTAKING THIS APOGEE
RIVER CITY HAS SET ME FREE

DEMO 7.25.05 1:27pm

Here are the demos for The Ideal Citizen, the third track from A Forest Through The Trees. After listening to all these again, it's possible that some or all of this might have made it onto the final master. The first file from 7.25.05 presents the basic form through bass/drum/keys. By 7.29 I 'd added electric guitar, percussion, scratch vocals, and more keys. On 9.13 I made a couple minor melody changes on keys and a slight different mix it seems. The next two mixes from 10.10 and 10.16 sound pretty similar to me, but there's probably something I'm missing. I titled the folder 'wah wah wah' - doesn't sound like I'm using a wah pedal though. Whatever. Thanks for listening.

DEMO 5.26.05 11:29 AM

Here's an idea from 5.26.05, just a straightforward chord progression (and slightly out of tune at that). I think the bridge needs to be longer. Or does it? Depends on the lyrics I reckon, which I didn't bother to write it seems. Here's another version from 5.28.05. It's essentially the same song, shorter form, different key. No major objections I guess. Maybe it will evolve someday.

Thanks for listening.

DEMO 5.25.05 12:58pm

Here are the demos for An Alien Communique, the final track from A Forest Through The Trees.

5.25.05 was the first occurrence of this idea anywhere, just a single guitar laying out the basic form. By 7.6.05 a few weeks later, I had added more guitars (doubling acoustics, electric leads), vocals (which might have been used on the master), and various keyboards (bass, pads). The ending had begun to take shape, though without the bevy of eventual noises.

The next three versions (7.29, 9.13, 10.16) are all fairly similar to the previous file and are included for the record. There may have been some new tracking/mixing in each session, but it's beyond my capacity to decipher at present. You are more than welcome of course.

And then there's the studio version. The ending is still something I can't quite explain, although I wish I could very much. Ten years later and I still can't figure it. Perhaps it represented an exciting new way to create, fueled by a stronger than usual sense of anger and uncertainty. That's a guess though. I'm happy it exists regardless. It was instrumental (yup) in opening up my thoughts about how music and sound could be created and recorded. It continues to educate and inspire me and for that I'm very grateful.

I'd also be remiss without mentioning Mr. Glenn Matullo. What a pleasure working with such a great producer and engineer. He is responsible for a variety of great mixing ideas here, plus many more throughout the entire album of course. A few weeks ago I thought about how it could be fun to re-record an entire album with the same group of musicians, discovering how we interpreted the music at different times in our lives. It could either be a fun creative journey or more like looking through your high school yearbooks for a while.

I prattle on though. Thanks for listening.

DEMO 5.9.05 5:59pm

So I found these two ideas in a folder called 'melodious funk'. I guess there's something melodious in there, but I'd take serious issue calling it funky. It's more olfactory funky, amirite?

The first idea from 5.9.05 reminds me of a bad version of an 80s video game soundtrack. Another version from 5.29 has the same chord progression but different instruments, as if switching instruments would make things better. The whole thing just repeats after the first B section if you want to save yourself the time (I would).

Sometimes things like this take shape and never really go anywhere, probably because I decided that what I heard in my head wasn't all that appealing once I'd put it to page. But they happen (or have happened) nonetheless. They're empirically part of the process. It's because of these that others exist and vice versa. So there.

Thanks for listening?

DEMO 4.26.05 1:10pm

Through the haze of memory, it's difficult to remember what I was aiming for with this one. If I had to guess (and I guess I have to), the lyrics stemmed from a machine coming alive and turning on those who used it for war. Guess I was pretty angry about Iraq, WMDs, GWB etc back when. Or maybe I'd watched Maximum Overdrive again. Either way, this could have been better with more experience and maturity on my part. But that's true of everything, right? Thanks for listening.

TANK ASSAULT AT MIDNIGHT

Lost in a foreign land
Washed in the golden sand
I was assured life was secure
Inside this desert you're calling home

Born of the finest steel
Made with camo conceal
I was to blame time and again
For destruction and pain on the road

I will obey
I will obey
But there will come a day when I resist

Tank assault at midnight
Tank assault at midnight

DEMO 4.26.05 12:38pm

Here is evidence yet again of my inexperience at recording even the basic elements of a song back in 2005. I'll try to explain. The drum machine I used was capable of producing not only drum sounds, but also rudimentary bass sounds as well. Therefore, one could program it to run through an entire song with both drum & bass parts playing together.

However, when I transferred the drums & bass parts of this song into my recording/mixing program in order to edit them alongside other tracks, I recorded them both into one audio track, fixing them together permanently. If I had known how or even thought about that being a problem later on, I would have transferred them separately then edited them how I wanted. But noooooooo.

Oh well. 'Twas my knowledge at the time. I'm sure one would find my current level of expertise lacking too. But hey I'm doing the best I can, right?!

Thanks for listening.

RAPTURE SCHEMES

Primed for the days
Designed for the craze
Fear is on the rise
So make your best disguise

I journey into space
With smoke for my escape
We altered our design in ecstasy

Can I entertain a sphere and not a plane?
Can I understand the chaos is planned?

I journey into space
With smoke for my escape
We altered our design in ecstasy

Are you ready for rapture schemes?
Are you ready for rapture schemes?
Are you ready for rapture schemes?
Am I ready for rapture schemes?
Am I ready for rapture schemes?
Am I ready for rapture schemes?
Am I ready for rapture schemes?
I am ready for rapture schemes!

DEMO 3.31.05 1:05pm

Below are a couple demos of what would eventually become Video Motion, the second track from A Forest Through The Trees. Although it's unfair and probably unwise to say so, this idea definitely ranks up there amongst the favorite songs that I've written over the years.

I started work on this at the end of March 2005, initially calling it 'newdrum' (very unique and descriptive indeed). I programmed the drums and bass on the drum machine and then transferred them to Pro Tools, which meant I couldn't separate them later to edit any further. I'm not sure why that never occurred to me at the time. It's probably because I was a blundering idiot at recording much of anything, let alone thinking ahead in general. Anyway, first is the initial drum and bass track.

Over the next few months I added some guitars and vocals to reach the next version around mid-September. There were several other versions in between, but they're all rather similar in nature, so I'll refrain from listing them all here at the moment. I doubt you want to spend your time listening to five slightly different demos of this song.

And finally, last is the final studio version to put things in perspective.

Thanks for listening.

VIDEO MOTION

ALL YOUR BONES ARE CONNECTED TO YOUR MUSCLES
YOUR OBJECTIVE IS TO CRACK THE CODES
YOU CAN DO IT BUT YOU’VE REALLY GOT TO HUSTLE
YOU’VE GOT SEVEN HOURS LEFT UNTIL THE BOMB EXPLODES
HOW MUCH CAN YOU SUSTAIN?
HOW MUCH CAN YOU RECALL?

YOU WANT TO KEEP IT STEADY
YOU WANT CONTROL THIS TIME
‘CAUSE YOU’RE IN VIDEO MOTION

CONCENTRATION AS YOU’RE PUNCHING ON THE CABLES
INTERRUPTION FROM THE DINNER FOLK
FIGHTING DIRTY LIKE YOUR SCRUPLES WERE DISABLED
AND THE THOUGHT OF CONVERSATION WANTS TO MAKE YOU CHOKE
HOW MUCH CAN YOU FRUSTRATE?
HOW MUCH CAN YOU DENY?

YOU WANT TO KEEP IT STEADY
YOU’RE ON A ROLL THIS TIME
‘CAUSE YOU’RE IN VIDEO MOTION

YOU WANT TO KEEP IT STEADY
YOU WANT CONTROL THIS TIME
I SEE YOUR HANDS ARE SWEATY NOW
YOU’RE ON A ROLL THIS TIME
‘CAUSE YOU’RE IN VIDEO MOTION

DEMO 1.25.05 7:54am

Here's an acoustic number I came up with at the beginning of 2005. I never wrote any lyrics for it. I may have tried at one point, but couldn't come up with anything that worked. It's nothing fancy, just a couple guitars and bass, but I've always liked it. Maybe I'll come back to it someday. Thanks for listening.

DEMO 1.17.05 11:40am

Here's yet another idea that I felt fairly jazzed about back in the day. Even though I started it on January 17th, 2005 the version below didn't come to fruition until October 16th of that year. I'm not quite sure why I neglected to pursue this idea for A Forest Through The Trees. Looking back it seems like it might have fit in somewhere if I could capture some acceptable vocals (unlike in some spots on this demo).

The choices I make as to which ideas deserve attention seem so arbitrary at times. Those choices are undoubtedly shaped by the experiences I'm having at any given moment, pushing my artistic inclinations in different ways at different times. I guess it's a mirror of some sort, though I'm not sure if it's a full length one where you can see yourself exactly from head to toe, or just one of those wavy ones from the circus.

It doesn't matter. This ceaseless fountain of creativity forces me to make decisions, to choose which creative impulses I want to explore more thoroughly than others. It doesn't mean that the others are unworthy of exploration. They're as valid as all the rest. Why did we decide to go down one path in life versus another? Why did we make the decisions we made? Is it just who we were at that point in time? Were we destined to make those decisions the way we did? Why did we do this and not that? I don't know. I wish I did. Perhaps if I could recall my entire life in perfect detail, I might.

Thanks for listening.

So you say you never cared for drums
And much prefer to hear the strums
Can't you see my friend that they are one and the same?
You can entertain the eager crowds with me
You can help defy the false security
Hurry up come here and join this loyal team

Oh what can I do to discover the creature's delight?
Creature's Delight!

Do the quick decisions conquer you?
Do you scoff at what you turn into?
Will the inspiration for you be the fires?
Spread the word no matter what it takes
Everybody makes the same mistakes
Will you come and give it more than it requires?

Oh what can I do to discover the creature's delight?
Creature's Delight!

Teach us!
Teach us the creature's delight!!!

DEMO 1.17.05 10:19am

I remember being very excited about this idea around the time I wrote it, a feeling that tapered off gradually as time passed. This song could have morphed into something better I suspect, but right now all I can say is meh. Maybe it has some life in it somewhere, some way to coax a more well-rounded musical experience, which is to say perhaps I have it within myself to concoct such an outcome. But perhaps not. I guess we'll see.

It's definitely odd and humbling to reflect back on something that you were so enamored by earlier in life, only to realize later that it really wasn't all that great to begin with. I reckon that's part of what this whole process of sharing these demos is about. Perhaps it will help me temper my emotions as I create in the future, to accept that it is fundamentally part of who I am and not to get so worked up about it. But that's part of the fun though, right?
In the past, I've become very anxious at times when I wasn't able to create on the schedule I desired; sometimes I still feel that way. It's been difficult to separate the creative side of my life from the practical side. It's so enticing to slip into this world where I place certain sounds in a certain order that pleases me. It's an escape I feel guilty about at times, while at others I feel embiggened through my cromulent performance. What a strange dichotomy.

I remember right after I finished mastering A Forest Through The Trees as I was driving away from the studio. Even though I reveled in the afterglow of the finished work, I was convinced something awful was going to happen to me at any moment, as if I had purged something vital from my psyche and that my story was consequently at an end. What an ego I must have to place myself so squarely at the center of things. But as my friend Thomas Priestley wisely said of the album, 'It's just another tree.' Anyway, thanks for listening.

Tied down in the fifth dimension

Classy calls on a silent ride

Juicy words when you seek attention

Disarray when you don't confide

Oh can't you feel that rhythm flow?

Oh like it was in '94?

Baked down in the southern city

Raise a flag for the hue and cry

Shoot the cup when you condescend

Vex me down when you don't intend

Turn me loose when the rhythm's running dry

Oh can't you feel that rhythm flow?

Oh like it was in '94?

Oh can't you feel that rhythm flow?

Oh like it was in '94?

DEMO 1.17.05 9:53am

Moving into 2005. This song went through several different iterations until I arrived at the file listed below. As I continued work on A Forest Through The Trees, I decided that this song didn't quite fit with the others on the album. However, since I obviously wanted to share it, I did so before the album was even released. I obviously had some strong feelings about it.

is the keeper of the uncarved
always searching for a blade?
has the ism that you've trusted
now become a masquerade?
do you think there's something out there
coming for you in the night?
won't you tell me, what's your pleasure sir,
out of mind or out of sight?

oh, they're watching over me!
i'm ready to betray the bad authority!

does confusion from messiahs
leave you nothing to control?
do you think there's something better
than just doing what you're told?
can't you see the soldiers marching
as you scream your favorite tune?
is there reason to believe
when all you see is sun and moon?

oh, they're watching over me!
i'm ready to betray the bad authority!

so come away with me tonight
we'll travel at the speed of light
we'll drop our faith to join the craze
our dreams are full of golden rays

oh, they're watching over me!
i'm ready to betray the bad authority!

DEMO 12.2.04 3:43pm

Here’s an idea that I always liked but never got around to fully recording. It’s another tune in 5/4, which I highly recommend. The first demo is just a drum track from 12.2.04 that changes a bit here and there (it takes a few seconds to kick in btw).

I spent about six months away from this idea before starting to work on it again, until finally reaching a stopping point with the next version dated 8.23.05. The tempo is a good bit faster, plus I’ve added on the fundamental layers as well. It’s fairly close to the final version below, so if you have other things to do I’d just skip to the end and save yourself two minutes and twenty-four seconds.

The last version is from 10.16.05. Basically, I decided to cut the intro and just start right in on the verse, plus mix everything louder I guess. Louder is not necessarily better, I know. But I like loud. Regardless, last is where I left this idea, plus the lyrics below. Thanks for listening.

LOAD IT WITH STYLE
POUR ON THE FAKE
MOAN YOUR DENIAL
POSED AND OPAQUE

RAGE FROM A MALCONTENT
THE HAZE WRITTEN ON YOUR BREATH
BUT TO GO THAT WAY MEANS CERTAIN DEATH

LATE WHEN YOU’RE SMACKING FIVES
YOU FADE BUT YOUR SOUL SURVIVES
YOUR REIGN IS DONE WHEN YOU INFER
THAT YOU’RE WHAT YOU DECIDE
WHAT WILL YOU STAND FOR WHEN THEY COME WITH KNIVES?

DEMO 12.2.04 1:32pm

So this was my first foray into writing in 11/4. The final outcome of the demos listed below would result in Symmetry Pursuit X, the ninth track from A Forest Through The Trees.

The first demo was begun on 12.2.04, including the drum track, bass, guitars, plus a few synths at the end. The next file is from 6.6.05. At this point I’d added some scratch vocals that pretty much stink in my opinion, some chorus pads, more synths, and a guitar solo. A few steps forward, but nothing amazing for sure. The third file is from 9.15.05. I’m pretty sure I re-recorded the vocals and then layered some effects on top (still fairly not good though). I’ve also added a couple electric guitars and mixed everything slightly different. This one sounds pretty darn similar to the last one, so if you’re in a rush I really wouldn’t bother.

Last is the final version from A Forest Through The Trees. The difference is pretty severe, with live drums, new vocals, keys, bass, guitars, and a ton of FX swelling up at the end. The lyrics are also listed below. Thanks for listening.

SYMMETRY PURSUIT X

LOST ARE THE DAYS OF THE LONESOME UNKNOWN
SCRAWLED IN ARRAYS ON THE ROSETTA STONE

FREE FOR THE SOUNDS
KNOW WHAT SURROUNDS
FEEL MY WAY THROUGH SPACE AND TIME
BREATHE FOR THE TAO

THESE SONGS ARE ABLAZE ON THE WANDERING ROAD
OUR PSALMS AND CLICHES WILL DECIPHER THE CODE

FREE FOR THE SOUNDS
KNOW WHAT SURROUNDS
FEEL MY WAY THROUGH SPACE AND TIME
BREATHE FOR THE TAO

FREE FOR THE SOUNDS
KNOW WHAT SURROUNDS
FEEL MY WAY THROUGH SPACE AND TIME
BREATHE FOR THE TAO

DEMO 12.2.04 12:31pm

Here’s an ideal that never really came to fruition. It’s a slower acoustic number in 3/4 for which I never managed to write lyrics, even though I remember trying at one point. I guess I couldn’t come up with anything that was worthy enough. Honestly I don’t remember.

Apparently I started this on 12.2.04, then reached this version below on 3.3.05. I recorded some scratch vocals that you can hear, but it’s more humming than actual singing. Listening now, I think a bridge might have been a good choice. Perhaps I’ll turn this into something better someday, but for now it will remain here in its current condition.

Since I guess I also couldn’t come up with a good title, I named it CA7, which are the main chords through most of the song. Pretty imaginative, right?

Anyway, here it is. Thanks for listening.

DEMO 12.2.04 9:27am

The next file in order is an idea that would eventually become Luminosity, the first track from A Forest Through The Trees. I’ve chosen to post a few different versions of this track for a bit more perspective.

The first file I could find in the folder is dated 1.22.05. Since I stared recording the morning of 12.2.04, it seems to have taken more than a month of work to reach this version. Although I say a month of work, it’s not as if I was working on it nonstop. As you’re most likely aware, other considerations in life have a tendency to obstruct and prolong the creative process.

Regardless, the file from 1.22.05 is basically just guitars, bass, and a drum machine and seems to demonstrate the fundamental rhythmic notion at the root of the song. At this point, the project was titled ‘NIRV’. I have no idea why I gave it that title or what it means. As you’ll see later, I eventually decided to adopt a system of numbering instead of named titles, which seems to have resulted in more organizational pros than cons so far.

The second file is dated 10.16.05, which means that I worked on this idea on and off for more than 10 months. What was I doing all that time? I don’t know. It obviously took some time to write the lyrics, plus I got married in November 2005, so I was surely spending a lot of my free time on that in lieu of recording. I’m looking forward to when these posts catch up with my current creativity, which will hopefully be able to reflect a more detailed explanation of how and what I’m doing as I’m doing it. But for now I’ll have to remember the best I can.

On the file from 10.16.2005, I’ve added vocals as you’ll hear, the lyrics for which are listed below. I’m fairly certain that some if not all of these vocals made it onto the final mastered version from A Forest Through The Trees. I’ve also added some synths (some of my first experiments in using keyboards), plus additional feedback near the end. There’s also a phone ringing at the end that was included on one of the vocal track sessions by mistake. Very professional indeed. The vocals really aren’t all that spectacular in my opinion.

I’ve include the final as well so you have a reference point of how the track ended up on the album. We’ve added real drums, several more acoustic guitars, overdubbed the bass, more synths, strings, and even more feedback at the end. As you’ll hear, it’s a ton of sounds being thrown at you. I often have trouble making choices in how to edit my work, which is something I still struggle with to this day. Regardless, this was how I wanted it to sound for whatever reason.

LUMINOSITY

MY DARLING YOU ARE THE SEA
AND I AM THE LAND UNDER THEE
WHERE ARE THE ANSWERS TO LIFE ?
ARE THEY BETWEEN YOU AND I ?

CURVED IS THE EARTH
STRAIGHT IS THE LINE
I WILL RETURN WHEN THE PLANETS ALIGN

THIS IS A NIGHT FOR THE YOUNG
BLIND AND DESCRIBING THE SUN
STAND UP AND STEP TO THE FORE
DEFEND THE THINGS YOU ADORE

CURVED IS THE EARTH
STRAIGHT IS THE LINE
I WILL RETURN WHEN THE PLANETS ALIGN…

…LUMINOSITY!

DEMO 11.30.04 5:14pm

I’ll begin this series with the very first idea I could find in my files, all the way back from 11.30.2004. I've decided to list these demos in order of when they were started, not completed, which at this point seems like the most logical way to approach this. Most ideas are started, then set aside for a while, then picked back up at another point, the set aside again, and so on until I either feel satisfied with a final outcome or stop working on it entirely.

Presenting things in order of creation, even if the initial idea is very unformed and raw, will provide insight into my creative inclinations over time. Unfortunately there is no way for you to follow my creativity every step of the way without placing a streaming camera in the studio for you to watch things unfold in real time. Maybe that's a good idea though. For these older ideas, I'll just have to supply what evidence I have on hand, which will certainly widen the window into what I've created more than if I didn't do so at all.

Anyway, this obviously wasn’t the first idea I’d ever created in my life, but the first I could find from what I’d saved on different hard drives over the years. If I had access to every idea I’d ever created, it would stretch back much further of course. Since I wasn’t prone to recording everything back when, this will serve as an arbitrary starting point. If I find more ideas stashed away somewhere I’ll share those too.

Thanks for listening

MANY YEARS IN OUTER SPACE
I’VE RUN THIS CONTRABAND
THERE IS NO ONE OUT HERE HALF AS SWIFT AS I
I’LL RUN CIRCLES AROUND YOU IN THE BLINKING OF AN EYE
AS I JOURNEY ON A ROCKET IN THE SKY

MOVEMENT FLOWS UNDER ME
IT’S ALL WHERE IT SHOULD BE

MOVEMENT FLOWS UNDER ME
NOTHING’S WHERE IT SHOULD BE

SO I ADMIT I NEVER CARED
THAT THE SPEED IS ALL FOR SHOW
EVEN AS I SNOOZED IN TREACHEROUS SECTOR PHI
SO I’LL STEER THIS SHIP
RELAX AND SIP THIS TASTY EAU DE VIE
AS I JOURNEY ON A ROCKET IN THE SKY

DEMOS

I've been thinking a lot lately about how I create music. These past two or three years have been extremely busy, raising Violet and enjoying life, which hasn't allowed for much time or desire to share more than a handful of songs here and there. Although I worked very hard on those songs, there is much more music I've created as well. The releases currently listed on my website are just the tip of the iceberg, so to speak, ideas that pushed themselves to the forefront of my creative enjoyment and evolved further than the others as a result.

For a while now, I've been preoccupied with the question of what happens to the other ideas that haven't matured as far creatively. Even though these ideas haven't emerged as thoroughly, they are undoubtedly still important in my mind and worthy of sharing. The songs contained within my 'official' releases are the ones on which I've invested the most time and effort, either because I found them interesting or they were complemented by ideas of a similar caliber. Regardless of that process, I've concluded that those ideas alone represent only a small part of my creative disposition.

Perhaps it's natural that I would only want to share the best and most fully realized of what I create, to paint the best picture of my creative self to the public, instead of allowing you to hear other concepts that haven't come as close to completion. Since my current artistic identity includes allowing others to learn about what I create, I must not only share the best of those creations, but all of them. I refuse only to provide evidence of my artistic success and not my artistic failure. There cannot be one without the other. I don't think these ideas are failures at all actually, but simply part of the process and small successes in their own way. Regardless, presenting everything is the only way that you can obtain the most complete view of who I am as a musician.

As you've probably guessed by now (since I've been so eloquently loquacious about it), I'll be posting new music from a rather large collection of unfinished work. The first file will be posted shortly. As always, I invite you to share your thoughts if you so choose. Thanks for listening.